Friday, March 21, 2008
After reading her blog,i smiled ..seriously..I was not alone all the while..Im trying to be someone good but i realise im fucking committing lotsa sins..And i really mean a lot..like right now, my paternal grandma is sick in the hospital n ive not visited her yet..haix..it's happened before n i dun wan it to fucking happen ever again..The thoughts of "what if i die tmrw"keeps ringing in my head n if i have the chance to go back to e past which of course wont happen, i'll certainly do my best to make the overall outcome better.. Some events i regret happened1)My aunty died n i never ever got the chance to tell her how much i love her..2)My maternal grandma died n no one told us bout it at first(partly my fault)The bad part was tt i didn even get to kiss her face for the last time..3)My paternal grandad died n no one told us bout it..Sheesh!4)My paternal step-grandad died n again no one told us bout it..(misunderstandings yet again)i mean wtf is wrong with these people!?! i just dun understand how anyone could be soo heartless?!
But hey,
GOD is not evil you know! HE is the most gracious..=) Im tryin hard and to think tt a lot of people are in the same boat gives me the strength to carry on improving myself as a good person..
There are certainly more to life than friends,dating,partying etc..And its certainly well said by a friend of mine.. =)
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